It’s no secret that 2018 has been off to a rocky start for me (especially after the sh*t show that was December 2017; read more about that here).  But something that these last two months have really reaffirmed for me is to trust the timing of my life. I’ve always been a firm believer that everything happens for a reason; but being the hustler and go-getter that I am, it’s sometimes hard for me to just let things flow and let the pieces fall where they may. I want what I want NOW, and I’ll push hard to get it, and sometimes it’s just not enough because the universe has something else planned for me. Case in point: this current job search…

To catch you up to speed in case you’re new to PLH, I lost my job after some shady happenings back in December. Since then, I’ve been back on the job market, applying to endless opportunities and reaching out to old connections to try to get something to stick. I’ve been putting my all into this job search and to me, if I’m putting my all into something, I expect something to come to fruition (maybe that’s the “entitled millennial” in me, ha!). Unfortunately that hasn’t been the case. I’ve been getting a few seemingly promising opportunities and interviews but no cigar so far. And that has been insanely frustrating to me.

When February started, I was disappointed to realize that after a solid month of job hunting, I was still job-less. You see, I had given myself a February 1 deadline to find a new job because in my experience, it usually only took me about a month to get something together. And this time around, I was even more confident that I would get something because of my job experience and big names on my resume. But when that didn’t happen, I was, admittedly, crushed. What’s wrong with me? I kept thinking. Why isn’t this job search going the same as the others?  My 25th birthday was rapidly approaching and I felt like a total loser for going into that milestone of a birthday at such an uncertain time in my career.

But here’s where things get interesting. New York Fashion Week started a few days prior to my birthday, and it’s been a goal of mine to attend NYFW one day. I didn’t know when that would happen, but I’d be lying if I said a small part of me wasn’t holding out hope that I would make that dream a reality sooner than later, at this season’s shows. Luckily for me, that dream did come to fruition this year, and I was able to attend a number of Fashion Week shows after only blogging for about 6 months! (stay tuned for a post all about that experience soon!) The first show that I attended was on a Friday at noon. Smack in the middle of a work day. But, interestingly enough for me, I was still without a job and had no other plans that day, so I was able to attend. See where I’m going with this now?

Had I got one of the jobs I’d interviewed for a few weeks ago, I wouldn’t have been able to attend my very first NYFW runway show. I wouldn’t have got to meet one of my favorite bloggers, Courtney from Color Me Courtney, in line for said show. I wouldn’t have gotten to have that experience if I’d had the job that I so desperately wanted. I have to believe that was the universe. I have to believe that the universe was conspiring for me to reach one of my goals, while simultaneously putting another goal on pause for the moment. And that is absolutely OKAY.

Today, one week post NYFW and my birthday, I still don’t have a job solidified (but I’ve got something in the works hopefully! cross your fingers for me ?) and that is okay with me. No it isn’t ideal by any means, but I’m making myself be at peace with the fact that I cannot control everything (as infuriating as that can be for someone like me). I’m still working and pushing to get what I want, believe me, but I’m trying to do it in a way that doesn’t put too much unnecessary pressure on myself and the things that I can’t control. I’m trusting the timing of my life. Because for the last 25 years, everything has seemed to work out pretty darn good if I do say so myself.

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